Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
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Friday, June 21, 2013

When It Can’t Get Any Darker



                It was my mother’s ambition to give my two brothers and I as many opportunities to see the world as she possibly could.  Though we were dirt poor, mom saved every year so we could go on vacation in the summer.  One of these summer excursions led us into Mammoth Cave of western Kentucky.  As a small child I was amazed that a hole in the ground could stretch so far, nearly 400 miles.  I fantasized about being the one to explore parts of the cave where no man had yet been.

                This summer I provided my eight year old son, Kameron, with the Mammoth Cave experience.  He trembled with excitement as he took each of 300 steps downward into the cave.  He enjoyed the coolness of the cave as it held its temperature steady at 54 degrees.  He loved the stalagmites and the stalactites.  “A stalactite holds tight to the ceiling and a stalagmite stands mighty on the ground,” his mother taught him to distinguish between the two.

                Half-way through the tour our guide gave us opportunities to ask questions.  My son immediately raised his hand as if he were sitting in Ms. Merritt’s second grade class room.  I quickly pulled his arm down, fearful that he was going to ask where the nearest bathroom might be.  I asked him, “What were you going to ask?”  He replied, “Oh, I was just going to ask him to turn out the lights.” A few minutes later Kam got his wish.   They turned out all the lights for only a brief moment.  It was Kam’s favorite part of the adventure.

                The darkness of a cave is like no other darkness you have ever experienced.  It is a total blackness that can generate panic in your breast.  It is a darkness that seems to have weight, an oppressive darkness.  Something you wouldn’t want to experience alone.  This kind of utter darkness, the kind that prevents you from seeing your hand in front of your face, can be very disorienting.

                In 1914, British explorer Ernest Shackleton set out to explore Antarctica with a crew of adventurous men.  Shackleton’s plan was to land his ship, the Endurance, and walk across the South Pole.  His mission had to be aborted because the Endurance was unable to endure the polar ice.   Shackleton’s crew was stranded for months.  Later, the survivors were asked to reveal the most horrendous difficulty they experienced in Antarctica.  They answered that it was not starvation.  It was not the bitter cold or the pain of frost bite.  The most horrible difficulty they faced was the darkness.  The sun doesn’t rise from mid-May to late June at the South Pole making total darkness an unwelcome companion.

                This deep darkness causes one to lose their sense of direction.  You can’t see where you are going nor can you see where you have been.  It removes the natural time piece that helps us to measure our days.  It will steal away one’s rhythm of life.  It can bring about depression and loneliness and cause one to lose their sense of who they are.  It has been known to cause some men to go mad.

                The sun is the source of all biological life.  Without its rays of light we would all perish.    The Bible often compares God to the sun.  “For the Lord God is a sun…” (Psalm 84:11)  Just as the sun is the source of all biological life, God is the source of all spiritual life.   As long as the earth stays in its orbit around the sun there will be life.  As long as our lives orbit around God we will have spiritual life.  He dispels the darkness that seeks to invade our workspace, our marriages, our families, our finances.  When God is centered in our lives we experience order and understanding.  When God is no longer the center of our lives we get disoriented in the darkness that pervades.  Order is replaced by chaos and peace is replaced by turmoil. 

                We practice idolatry when we try to replace God as the true source of light in our lives. We may feel a temporary satisfaction even though we ignore God in our pursuit of a career, or in our thirst for acceptance and popularity.  Forbidden love and unbridled lust will certainly bring a temporary satisfaction but eventually we will discover that those things are not big enough to fill the God-shaped hole in our hearts.

                Spiritual darkness can cause us to lose a proper perspective of who we are.  You can’t see yourself when the light is turned off.  You find yourself doing things you never dreamed you would do when you dwell in the dark.  The darkness provides a false sense of security.  Under the cover of darkness you tend to believe that no one sees and no one knows and no one cares.  Loneliness becomes a companion to darkness as you become more and more isolated.  Prolonged isolation will lead to depression and finally to disintegration. 

                A cave-like, polar darkness descended upon Israel the day Christ died.  But the darkness was finally lifted and Christ was resurrected.  His resurrection demonstrates to us his power to save.  He is the Light who chases away spiritual darkness in the souls of men.  He brings order out of chaos, he brings peace out of turmoil, he brings satisfaction out of frustration, clear direction out of disorientation, love out of hatred and hope out of despair. 

                The hope of every Christian is rooted in His resurrection.  His resurrection rends the veil in two so we may enter the holy of holies.  His resurrection brings assurance to the Christian that death is only temporary and eternal life awaits those who call upon the name of the Lord. His resurrection clears a path for us to find our way to heaven where we will no longer need the light of the sun.  Instead, we will bask eternally in the light of his glory.



Kevin Probst - Teaches New Testament, Apologetics and Epistles at Lafayette Christian School in LaGrange, Georgia.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Destroy The Fear In Your Life


          

 Life was good for Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden.  It was a true paradise until Satan slithered into their lives.  They went into hiding after they had offended their Creator.  "Then the Lord God called to the man and said to him, where are you?"  Its not like God didn't know where they were, it was a preparation question by which God was about to reveal himself to them.  Adam replied, "I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid."  Adam and Eve then revealed the sin in their hearts by participating in a blame game.

            Fear can be paralyzing.  The sound of God's movement in the garden was incapacitating.  It was heart stopping.  John Haggai said, "For many, fear has grown like a tree until it over shadows them from morning till night."  Fear is probably the most destructive force of mankind.  Satan tempted Adam and Eve with the sin of pride and then the assaulted them with fear. 

            Fear is a leading health problem among Americans.  Fear and depression are like destructive twin sisters.  They can spawn ulcers, heart problems, liver and kidney disease in their wake.  Fear and worry are probably responsible for more deaths than all the wars combined.  "God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7)  If fear doesn't come from God it must originate with Satan.  Satan unleashes fear upon us and then he "prowls around like a lion looking for someone to devour." (1 Peter 5:8)  A.W. Tozer said, "Fear is of the flesh and panic is of the Devil." 

            I am a Kentucky basketball fan and I recently enjoyed watching Kentucky plow to a national championship.  I noticed their intensity increased dramatically as they neared the end of each game they played.  I think Satan's activity is increasing dramatically as the endgame draws near.  "But woe to the earth and the sea, because the devil has gone down to you!  He is filled with fury, because he knows that his time is short."  (Revelation 12:12)

            There are numerous verses in the Bible that admonish us to fear God.  "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom." (Psalm 11:10)  There is not a single verse in the Bible that tells us to fear Satan.  When we have a reverential respect for the all-powerful God, our fear of Satan is erased like black marks on a dry erase board. 

            Fear is indelibly woven into the fabric of our culture.  We fear unemployment.  We fear poverty.  We fear an empty bank account.  We fear foreclosure.  Our anemic economy has generated a great fear that Medicare, Medicaid and our Social Security will one day be no longer available.  This spirit of fear is an evil spirit, it hounds us and torments us and it is born in hell.

            I was very discouraged when I looked at the bottom line on this year's tax return.   I owed the federal government a sizeable amount of money.  I owe money to the mortgage company but it doesn't give rise to any fear.  I owe money to the dentist, I owe money to the Medical Center but these debts stir in me no fear.  For some reason, owing money to the U.S. Government produced a dreadful fear in me.  I began to imagine people pulling up in my driveway in black limousines, jumping out in Colombo style overcoats to serve me papers with Barack Obama's name on them.  I painted a house during Spring Break to pay off our taxes and I'm relieved to say, "I don't owe the U.S. Government one red cent." 

            Ten years ago my wife and I left public schools to work in private Christian schools.  The move from public to private required we take a $20,000 to $30,000 combined pay cut.  We had no idea how we would pay our bills but we both felt strongly that God was calling us to teach in Christian schools where we could openly, daily proclaim the name of Christ.  I want to reveal, to the glory of God, that we have never missed a house payment, we have never missed a car payment and we've had more than enough food to eat since we decided to trust God for our needs.

            If God is asking you to do something but you just can't seem to crunch the numbers on it, don't be smothered by a spirit of fear.  I boldly and confidently write these words, "If you are doing the bidding of God who 'owns the cattle on a thousand hills', (Psalm 50:10) he will take care of you."

            Over a hundred years ago, while her husband was away for several weeks on a preaching assignment, Civilla Martin wrote these words: 

            "All you may need he will provide,
            God will take care of you;
            Nothing you ask will be denied,
            God will take care of you.

            No matter what may be the test,
            God will take care of you;
            Lean, weary one, upon His breast,
            God will take care of you."

            As a school teacher I really connected to a quote I read recently, "When you are going through something hard and wonder where God is, remember, the teacher is always quiet during the test." 

            We often become arrogant about the things we have accumulated over the years.  We think we have earned those things.  We have what we have because God gave those things to us.  "Every good and perfect gift comes from above." (James 1:17)

            My brother, Dennis, has been a missionary to Japan for over thirty years.  He and his wife are packing their belongings and preparing to return to the states as I write these words.  They have experienced some severe health problems that forced them into early retirement from the mission field.  God spoke to Dennis' heart when he was but a teen-ager about dedicating his life to the Japanese people.  Dennis obediently served God for all those years, depending on God and the goodwill of others to support his ministry.

            I asked him the other day, "Dennis, what are you going to do now?  Your retirement plan is not enough to sustain you.  You are still buying a house.  Your wife has a mountain of medical bills to pay.  What are you going to do?"  His reply went something like this, "Kevin, God has taken care of us for over thirty years.  Do you think he will now forget about us now?"

            Then I began to consider why my brother was called of God to the mission field and I was not.  Perhaps it was because he was able to drown out his fears with faith in a trustworthy God.  While I was fearfully quizzing my brother concerning his next move, he was resting on the promises of a loving God.  There is no need to be fearful, was it not said of the Author of the Universe, the One who cannot lie or deceive, the One who has never broken a promise, "And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" ? (Philippians 4:9) 


Kevin Probst - Teaches History, Government and Apologetics at the high school level in Columbus Georgia.